I'm attending a wedding today. The celebration of two people promising to love each other until death do them part. Actually the love doesn't go away even after death shows up, unannounced. The love remains like scar tissue over your heart and stings and burns and thickens with time. I RSVP'd a month … Continue reading I Now Pronounce You Widow
Jason's favorite season was fall and his favorite month was October, same as me. We loved October not just because it signaled the end of the oppressive and miserable swampy air of North Carolina, but fall meant leaves shifting from green to vibrant reds, yellows and oranges. We usually made an annual trip to Asheville just to … Continue reading Pair: something made up of two corresponding pieces.
I didn't start having dreams about Jason until just recently. I suppose I was glad I wasn't dreaming about him because then I would be forced to wake up to reality...which I've done enough the past several months. Last night I did dream of Jason and it wasn't a warm-fuzzy dream but a prickly and … Continue reading A Bad Dream is Overshadowed by a Magical Coincidence
There is a resilience and invincibility that goes along with being forced to live and survive your greatest fear. While you feel so exposed, fragile and vulnerable there is also this amazing army that assembles within your brain and fights off all the ridiculous and unfounded fears you once had. I'm still afraid of showing up … Continue reading Reality and Fear…And Bathroom Mirrors
The nature of my husband's job required him to travel overseas frequently and because of this he was able to visit so much of the world, and he made many friends along the way. He was extremely dedicated to everything he did whether it was earning his MBA, training for a marathon, hiking the Appalachian … Continue reading Say Yes