Time is my enemy. All I want is for the day to go by as quickly as possible so I can go back to sleep. That's the only time I don't feel trapped inside my head. I no longer count the last 24 hours as a victory but rather as a failure because I'm still here. … Continue reading But How?
I've ruined the few good things I had, and what I didn't ruin just ended up ruining me. Let's imagine happiness returned. It would't stay long. Despair is just around the corner waiting to move in as soon as the Sun appears. I can't even say I'm lost because I'm not sure I ever knew … Continue reading It’s True now
Going out last night was the right choice. It pried me out of my head which has been a treacherous and slippery place lately. It was the anxiety of not knowing how I'd be treated and feeling like I'd be an unwelcomed intruder among my friends. I had created in my head an image of distrusting and … Continue reading The Stoning
There’s nothing more miserable than waking up at 2:30am unable to fall back asleep. This has been happening almost every night for the past month. I woke up in the middle of crashing my parents car after I had to borrow theirs having already crashed my own. I’m not sure how Freud would interpret that … Continue reading No Longer Dividing Joy